From my experience, many people have told me how pregnancy drags on and how they are over it and can’t wait to deliver their baby. Now, there have been many times where I *hear* that for sure. But seeing as how I could go into labor at truly any moment, it is so hard for me to believe that my pregnancy, our pregnancy really (Spencer, mine and the baby) is coming to an end. It has gone by so fast, and truly been a wonderful experience. I am sure the IVF plays into this perspective, but it is so hard to believe she will be here so soon I have to pinch myself.
So, this very well may be the last blog I write before bambina is here. AHHH. It is a very surreal time. All I can think about is this baby. I am having small contractions as I write this. Went in to the dr yesterday, who is planning on an induction on Tuesday the 14th, and he did an internal exam with his giant Frankenstein hands to tell us we were 2-3 cm along already. Woo hoo! This will make the induction more favorable, but also reveals we might begin labor naturally before then. I am kind of hoping she is not born on Saturday, the Ides of March…is that terrible? It’s also the St. Patrick’s Day parade and many of the roads will be closed. Seems like a hot mess waiting to happen. Sunday is the full moon so that would not be a surprise if she came then.
I stopped working last week and it was the best possible decision I have made in a long time. Now, I recognize I am very fortunate to be able to do this and not everyone can; however, working 11-12 hour days was definitely draining my life force and causing swelling and more contractions than I had not working. I have been able to spend time talking on the phone to friends, visiting my mother and sisters in law and walking the dog as well as being with my husband. Pure joy.
Ok, so full disclosure, I am human. My human responses right now are delight, love, fear and anxiety. I think the fear and anxiety come from the waiting for the onset of labor. I have some irrational fear of it happening in the night time because apparently doctor’s don’t work then? Pish. It is just the unknown. We can’t wait to meet her.
And oh yes, decide on a name! This has been so difficult for me and my husband wants to wait to meet her and then decide. Here are the variations of our choices:
Florence Rose, Florence Amelia
Simona Florence, Simona Rose
Wildcard contenders: Sierra, Mira, Miriam, Pearl, Rose
With love and elation,
Margaret & baby